I was going to wait until the New Year to start blogging but I am just so inspired that I am compelled to ‘let it flow’
I would like to start out stating that I will use the following terms interchangeably; God, Source, Spirit, Higher Self/Spirit, Divine, Divinity and Energy only when ‘E’ is capitalized.
Today has been a day of true inspiration, it’s truly wonderful to be compelled to do the work of the Divine. The energy is there and the words just seem to flow. I have found that when we speak the ‘truth’ we find a captive audience many times they will actually stop and listen. This can be a little nerve racking when all your life you have been lead to believe that you are not ‘going anywhere’, ‘your opinion doesn’t matter’ and that you will ‘amount to nothing’, but that feeling of being compelled is the direct ‘work’ of Source and it cannot be told, ‘later’. We are all a part of Source whether we choose to admit it or not. Those things that just resonate with you and seem to just vibrate are doing just that, when it is ‘truth’ then it will always seem just perfect. We can all feel energy, its easy when we become aware and here is an easy way… Remember the last time you went to a concert and you could feel the excitement in the air, that buzz, that is resonance, that is vibration. We are all vibration, everything in this ‘reality’ is vibration, the softer something is the less it vibrates, the harder something is means it is vibrating at a higher rate. When we hear helicopters in the air, we hear the vibration, if we open ourselves up we can actually feel it too.
I want to talk about physical healing vibration. I know from personal experience that when we are unwell or in a state of dis-ease we are vibrating at a lower level than someone who is healthy. I have been through it all, let me tell you, you will be very grateful for your health after reading about mine. I am certain of it. That saying, ‘If you don’t have your health, you have nothing’ is true and untrue at the same time. There are 4 kinds of health, I believe; mental, emotional, physical and spiritual and it is a fine balance between the four to live a life of joy, happiness and pure abundance because if you are lacking in one area, it can cause the others to follow unless you listen to your Higher Spirit. Without physical health we feel like ‘we have nothing’ because all our energy is zapped or our bodies become immobile which can breed serious issues of resentment. The fact is we ‘have’ a wonderful opportunity to expand our consciousness through the lack of health.
To summarize my health issues; I have been diagnosed with 9 different dis-eases including: Osteogenesis Imperfecta (O.I. is genetic, I was born with it), Osteoporosis, Osteo Arthritis, Arthritis, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Supra Ventricular Tachycardia, Fibromyalgia, Cyclothymic Disorder and after all that, of course, Depression. Chronic pain was another issue I lived but is not really considered a disease. I have dis-associated myself with these diagnoses because they have their own vibrations which I am extremely susceptible to and wish to no longer stay in them, for I am now in a state of healing vibration. I am healing. None of these dis-eases are communicable so don’t worry if you have been around me, you won’t ‘catch’ what I have but you certainly could bring yourself into the vibration which causes any one of these health issues, within your own body. There is not really any place we can go yet which will tell us what dis-eases vibrate at which level and frequency but if we really pay attention we can certainly tell when we are on our way to illness, just as we can tell when we are getting better. Medical self-diagnosis is a very scary thing and I urge everyone to stay away from it because if you are sensitive like me it is absolutely possible to cause the exact dis-ease you are thinking you may have. I personally but unknowingly did this with Fibromyalgia and believe me, it is no picnic, so please don’t medically self-diagnose.
The cost to my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health has been high. Osteogenesis Imperfecta and Osteoporosis caused me to have, over 50 broken bones, this speaks for itself and Osteo Arthritis causes painful bone growths and bone spurs which press on muscles – tendons – ligaments and the worst – nerves. Imagine your worst toothache and multiply that by 100, that is the kind of Sciatic pain I have had, for years on end, transferring from one leg to the other causing me to lose the function of my legs and feet at times. Arthritis speaks for itself as everyone pretty much knows what it is and the symptoms. Fibromyalgia cause painful joints and muscles they would ache like a chronic flu feeling, there is little I felt like doing when going through bouts of it, and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome also played a part in my life as it goes hand in hand with FM. Supra Ventricular Tachycardia meant countless sudden rapid heart rate attacks of 240bpm, at that rate a person can only last 40-60 mins before they will just drop dead. It nearly cost me my life a few times and I did not always value my own life due to the health issues and so God intervened at those times to save me. Cyclothymic Disorder kept me in a state of Chronic Depression, allowing me to have some reprieve when the ‘high’ would set in for a couple days, it was then and only then I would attempt to accomplish the things I needed to do, then I would be ‘wrecked’ again. Depression kept me in darkness for months upon months and took me to the brink of suicide many many times. Chronic pain was one of the earliest symptoms I had that indicated I was not living my life to my true calling or potential and it was difficult to say the least. I’ve had several surgeries including; 2 knee surgeries, 2 disc disectomies, 1 to repair a compound fracture in my right forearm and the ultimate surgical invasion; a cesarean section Cesareans speak to us so loudly as mistrust of our bodies to perform the way we are designed to. Sadly many C-Sections are scheduled these days for ‘convenience’ or fear of ‘labour pain’ denying women the Divine right to be a woman, often we are told by or scared into them by male doctors who have really no clue as to how a normal birth is suppose to go and they cannot trust an experience they know nothing about. (Cesareans are a whole other topic for another blog.)
This year, 2012, is all about consciousness and connecting to Source. At the end of June, exactly half way through the year, I stood at my own personal ‘health cross-roads’. It would have been a very scary experience for most but I was unusually calm through it all, absolutely I was concerned but scared, no. I thought I had had a minor heart attack and because of the combination of SVT and a family history of heart related problems I was admitted to the hospital for a week and subjected to every single test there was to find out about the condition of my heart. I truly feel that my calmness came from ‘knowing’ that I was going to be just fine because when it came down to it I was not going down the path of my fore-mothers, no way, no how! I remember laying in the hospital bed and consciously choosing to not be like my mom, in a health sense. My poor mother, God rest her Soul, spent the last 15 or so years of her life battling heart disease and it really took its toll on her. I watched her slowly die and it was a good lesson for me, from watching her I knew I would never walk down that path. I chose health and of course, all my tests came back saying my heart was just fine, no issues and nothing to worry about. So I left the hospital with the advisement to be aware of my SVT and to come back anytime I felt I needed to be re-checked. My heart is better than fine and with faith & my new found trust in it that it will always guide me the in the right direction, I am living a heart-centered life now. I moved my thoughts and ideas out of my mind and and into my heart, stopped beating myself up, stopped the negative self-talk and began loving myself unconditionally. (Being in the hospital during this was also a lesson in letting go of control but I will talk about that in another blog for I am inspired and I do not wish to deviate at this time.)
Making the conscious choice to follow a path of health helped me to begin to vibrate at a different level almost immediately coupled with the unconditional love vibration which is the highest vibration we can achieve, in any given area, my healing began immediately. Like I said before, those who are ill or dis-eased vibrate at a lower level than the healthy. The way vibration works is not really an up and down sort of thing. It is more like a levels thing, someone who is sick (low vibration) but chooses health (high vibration) will automatically start vibrating at a higher level. The lower vibration will be brought up to the higher, resulting in healing on many levels, not just related to the one illness or disease that we are dealing with at that moment. This is important and begs rememberance as you face health challenges in your life. By automatically choosing health, instead of saying, Oh God what’ve I got now, will by direct vibration begin to take away the challenge you are facing and heal other issues at the same time. Please always choose health and say a prayer of thanks for your current health when heading to the doctor for diagnosis, you could physically change the answer the doctor was going to give you. Like I also said, it doesn’t matter if you believe in it or not, we are all vibration.
Through it all, through every health issue and health problem I have had, I came to learn, not only would everything always work itself out but I knew I would come through it a bigger better person. And it is that which I clung to during every one of my later health problems and so I did, I came out expanded spiritually, mentally and emotionally. However physically I would end up right back with the ole cast and crutches again at some point but each time it would get easier to deal with when it did happen. I am 40 now and have been a work in progress all my life but particularly over the last 2 decades more so and it was when I was in the hospital, when I chose health, that I had my biggest shift yet. I came out of it a bigger better person alright, I came out of it a Healer. For I learned that if I can heal myself, I can heal others and I have begun to do so. All it takes for me is Unconditional Love & Intention and absolute faith that I can take away things like; headaches, growing pains, emotional hurts, etc.
I probably could have learned to become a healer through more conventional methods like study and learning from teachers but I feel that I had to go through the issues I did, in order to understand my fellow humans on another level, spiritual. So what happened, through the ideas I was taught to believe about myself, the ones mentioned above and the all important one, ‘if you put your mind to it, you can do anything’ I did ‘anything’ and caused way more pain in my life than was probably necessary. I took the ridicule and ‘truth’ to heart and created the dis-eases in my body but with complete mental ignorance of doing so, after-all who the heck wants ‘lack of health’, I know I always wanted to be healthy, but I did not desire it. It was only when I was faced with the choice of how to live the rest of my life that I strongly desired to be healthy. The combination of ridicule and actual truth took me to literal hell but I am on my way back I am gaining back my health and I will help others to achieve this as well.
The heart and hospital instance in June really confirmed to me that we are in charge of where we choose to go in this life time. All the possibilities are already written, we choose the path. We can choose one of dis-ease and illness (low vibration) and that is ok, we all have our own lessons to learn but please do not forget, you can also choose health (high vibration). If you, like me, have lived a life of ill health you probably wonder why. I would just like to mention something else I learned and that is, when we ask why, we will not be given the answer right then and there because we are in a place of asking vibration. It is when we open ourselves to the receiving vibration when the answers we seek will come flooding in. These answers can come in any form, whispers from Spirit, through a song, a conversation with a friend, a line in a movie, in an article in a magazine, a billboard, literally anywhere. So when you ask, make sure you are aware that the answer is on the way and trust in it, have faith. It may seem crazy at first if it comes through a line in a movie but hey Higher Self knows where you are at all times. If there are reoccurring ‘whispers’ or ‘little knocks’ happening in your life, know that it is The Divine letting you know that you need to take issue with whatever is being told to you. Don’t doubt it, don’t ignore it because you do not want it to get too much louder. I learned ‘be careful what you wish for’ the hard way and ended up with a broken leg one time and 3 broken bones in my foot another. Where do you think the saying, ‘If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again’ came from, it came from Source because that is what It does. Pay attention to the little knocks and move forward before you find yourself in a place of illness or dis-ease for they are much harder to get rid of when you are not in a positive vibration, that receptive place.
I have so much more to say on this subject and this is a good start, I will continue later… God knows I could write an entire book just on the health issues I have been through, never mind the healing portion. This is a blog mostly about physical healing, but there is also Mental healing, Emotional Healing and Spiritual Healing that I would like to talk about further, later. Please stay tuned, you can follow my blog to receive updates by email too so when you find you are in need of an answer, perhaps my blog post will be just that which will answer your question.
I wish you all a Happy and Healthy New Year!